Out of nowhere comes Tommy and he’s sitting besides me, to the left. And in an exasperated tone he asks “Alrite, what is it?”
But I’m crying so hard that I can’t answer. And the truth is I didn’t know why I was crying. All I knew was that I was very very sad and I can’t stop crying.
My head is on Tommy’s lap, my hands still covering my face, and he’s stroking my head and calmly asking, “What’s wrong?” in a voice that’s almost a whisper. But I couldn’t answer.
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In reality, Tommy has always had an uncanny way of knowing when I need to talk to him. All I have to do is think of him and my phone rings. He usually greets me with, “Alrite, what is it Cris? What’s wrong?” I know that sound weird but it’s true. Perhaps we were twins in a past life?
It creeps me out that now he’s in my dreams as well. Especially since I rarely dream and when I do I’m either falling or someone is dying. I haven’t been able to get a hold of him. The last time I talked to him was months ago. I’m very sorry that things fell apart. If I had to choose between him and all the rest of my friends I would without a doubt choose him.
But don’t misunderstand. I do not want a romantic relationship with him. It’s just that out of all of my friends he is the only one who has never caused any drama in my life. He’s never questioned my friendship or my character. He once chose me over a girl he was seeing because he said that our friendship meant more to him than some girl who only caused him grief.
He was thoughtful beyond belief! I once said I wanted to go to the beach and the next day (even though it was freezing) he took me to Pacifica just so I could put my toes in the water.
I do believe he is my soul mate (not to be confused with love mate) and that’s why we met.
More than one person has told me that we should be together. But honestly that’s the last thing I want. We have a beautiful thing that I have yet to achieve with anyone else and I think there’s a reason for that.
If only I could get a hold of him so I knew he was real and not just a figment of my imagination…