I need new friends. I’ve just spent an entire weekend at home. Ugh why do I go thru this EVERY winter?! Time for replacements! MmmKay.
Uy figure out I was upset with her… three months later. She’s a little slow lol. I confessed I was but we were out and I didn’t think it the time or place to get into it. She’s made it official with her kindda sorta maybe not really friend. Not that I don’t wish her the best but I give it a few weeks tops. And yes she’ll come crying to me cos even though I’ve told her time and time again he’s no good for her, she never listens. A few weeks tops.
I sent a text to mister “trade you for an oompa loompa” man he must be really upset cos he didn’t reply. Where do I send the matching towels? Your place or his?
Times like these to appreciate the friends you DO have. Thanks Chucky! I heart you forever! Good Luck with the new trabajo! Free Jamba Juice Forever!!!
Maybe I need to stop having such hubris? Who do I think I am anyway? I’m buying myself a plane ticket for next month I have to stop being so fuckin scared. What if this is really the last chance? What if this time it IS meant to be? What if my holding back makes me miss out on something really really great? We’ll see just how far this goes this time…
Wouldn’t it be great to just move away and leave everything and everyone behind? I guess dying would be the same except with leaving you can always come back. Come back to what though I dunno? Is anything worth coming back for? Other than the obvious bullshit. Blah.
Oh just forget everything I just said. I’ve been indoors too long and I’m bored. I dunno what I’m saying anymore.
"Memory"
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?
written on 2005-01-16 at 7:56 p.m.
tired / of lying